First session went surprisingly well. I was nervous as fuck though. Doctor asked if I had any drug use or problems, which I answered yes. He said since I haven’t done it in a few weeks then my serotonin is probably almost back to normal but since I have a history of mental illness, it’s not likely that it has anything to do with my problem. Told him about my anxiety and most recent attempt at suicide, wrote me a script for Zoloft and Restoril. I guess for depression, anxiety and insomnia. He said I’m also developing what looks like the early stages of a bi-polar disorder, and if I’m not back to normal in a month then I’ll need regular visits with a therapist, and I’ll also be put on mood stabilizers.

Just got the pills, I think I’ll start the Zoloft tomorrow. Restoril tonight, for sure. Atleast it’s a benzo. I kind of consider it a win.

And boyfriend bought me the Little Rascals movie, so my night is pretty much set.

Here’s to hoping I get better. *raises coke can* hahaha.

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